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January 09 Year 2009 - a Blue start....A new year already....in the past, I always have the feeling to get renewed and a new start in every year eve...And very often I will have a high spirit in the beginning of the year...
But this year, somehow it is not the same, I don't how to explain the feeling I have....I have a great desire to want to be energtic in the start of the year but yet I feel so uncomfortable to get back to work...I don't know what it is....I know I should be grateful to what I have for my job, but yet I just cannot find any sense of accomplishment or things I want from my current job......just wanna escape far away...
I just find out that these few months my confidence or interest has go down to its maximum, I just can't find the way out...there is many things I want to do but yet I can't find anyway to get it done...
What's wrong with me? I really don't know, I have been telling myself my lack of motion to work is just because it is so close to my travel and holiday and that's make me work lazily .....but now I find it is not the case, there is so many thing to worry, and seem everything bad thing just come altogether suddenly, leaving me a lot of pressure and things to face....
I wanna fly away and develop my own interest but yet I am confined to my current situation....
I want to change!!!!!!!!!!
Is there anybody that could help me???????????????
December 02 DisappointmentI just feel I am not angry with you this time, but rather is kinda disappointment....
I do not how to speak out the feeling....many emotion blow me up...you seem so taking care of me while on the other hand, you seem too much concetrate on yourself and neglect my interest or event let me being left unprotected.....I don't understand the complexion....It is not the first time you have done that (or more precisely is it is not the first time I felt being treated by you like that.....), but everything I am thinking of reason to cover you, now I just gradually find out maybe it is because you are really spoiled by your family and yet your don't know....Everybody seem to be letting you do whatever you want...I know you have kind heart, but sometime you are just blinded by your desire for execllence....but your don't know some how you hurt other and the one you love....
Anyway, I don't think you will have a chance to look at this blog...but I just wanna to speak out my feelings out there...
Walking to the next step for both of us, I think we still have a big gap and distance to walk far.... November 03 Happy Birthday Ryo Chan!Happy Birthday to Ryo chan! wish you have a fab. career and getting more fans... (this ryo chan is the J pop I become obessed recently....)
And Happy Halloween to all of you! How's your weekend?
Well... I have been to OCean park, and so strange I am not going for the Halloween , just normal day going for the the ocean park. People will know me that I am super afraid of ghost and so this kind of thing never my cup of tea! So instead of spending time doing nth in HK, I went to the ocean park last sunday! and it was super super hot! I even change for twice but my sweat is just coming out non-stop!....
I think I was become old enough to stop playing those high risk machines....I remeber when I was still in YW, I was always the first one to get on those machines and so eager to play, even other girls back off....I remeber once upon a time, we went to ocean park and we play Rock Scissor Paper when playing the pirate ship! But this time, my thoart and voice lost when I get back, I scream loud enough that the one beside actually scare of me rather than the ever free falling speed of the jumpy macahines....
October 30 Just an update from a 2 year time....Woo hoho....
Just find out how long I have not been here and update my blog....
Horrible! It was a two years time! Thing was changing 100% these two years...
Part time job changing (from FO + Espirit Sales + Banquet Sales Coordinator+ Sales assistant...)Graudation (best student in 4 th supplement)....looking for permanent jobs.....(Venetian)...Broking up with the previous him and meeting another him.....Going Germany with the existing him... Keep one dogs(Springer)....Going Shanghai trip with this existing him....Going Thail with my mom and two aunties....Going Japan with this existing him (Self driving in Hokkaido...)Keep another dog (poodle)...Getting fatter and fatter...making big bonus from job....start being obessed in Japanese Pop band, Ryo kun and Kame kun....it was a lot lot changes....I just can't believe how much changes could take place in 2 years time...
But so good! when I saw the above things I undergo, I only remember the happy memories but for sure I know I have undergo some tough times during those dates....What more am I ask for? (You know what, I also just understand this when I type this blog and saw what I have typed for the changes previously....) It was amazing!
You know what, before logging in this blog, I am planing to write about some stress I face recently...but you know, after remember all the happy memories from above, I just think that all the stress I face worth nothing....I see myself again remembering those happy memories when I log in again two years later, backseeing what I have done
 ! Suddenly realise on every period, we certainly need to face different stress and breakdown....and many times we are just so focusing on them that we forget to look on the happy happenings around....But so irony that after a long time.. when we look back, we just remember those happy times...and we actually waste the time to be sad rather than celebrating the happy moment....
FOLKS, WE NEED TO BE APPRECAITING FOR GOOD HAPPENINGS...not everything god and we face are for granted.
Guess what, after writing up so many things here, I feel I am the lucky one....
May God bless all of you!!!! October 11 每"季"既uodate....哈哈~~終於肯乖乖地咁坐係部腦面前update 個blog 啦, 其實我想update 好耐架啦....
由係香港intern 完就已經想架啦...但係自己可以懶成咁,就算坐係屋企無野做都唔會上下個blog...
搞到個blog生晒雜草tim....
話咁快又返左學成一個月啦, 雖然我都有做parttime,但係依個月來都唔係好忙,因為year 4 subject 又小左,返工又唔係返得多,所以真係唔係好辛苦~~
不過我發現原來大家係year 4都好忙好勤力架wor, 差唔多日日都要返工,所以我決定搵多份part time 做,希望可以幫補下我每月不斷増加既支出啦....
如果要選一年最改變同影響我既一年..我諗今年無第一,都有第二架啦....一來去左香港做野,先發現原來個world 係咁大, 雖然之前都去過exchange, 但係今次係係一個commercial 既world 生存,真係令我獲得唔小出來做野既skills 同attitude, 二來俾我遇上佢, 雖然佢唔算係一個perfect 既人,但係我相信我同佢可以一路走下去....(希望你睇到啦~~雖然你唔知有依個blog 既存在~~~)
 之後又講下讀書個方面啦,可能受左intern 既影響,發覺自己月來月唔太喜歡讀書,之前仲諗住自己一定會讀master tim, 但係原來只不過係以前既我未真真正正咁行出個world, 一路都係自己好細好細ge vision 到諗野,仲要以為自己好醒....唉...現家諗返都覺得自己naive...現家既我,真係好想快d畢業, 快d可以出來做野養家...唔使再要屋企shoulder 晒所有既burden.....
到最後我都好想講一樣野...雖然我唔講佢個名出來,但係我知佢一定會睇到同明白,正與我都明白一樣...
其實大家一路以來都有努力過,但係唔知點解個timing 就係唔岩....
我知大家都係對方心目中有一定既份量, 但係又偏偏唔可以咁close,又或者無機會做d好close 既野....
其實我自己都唔係好明...我地大家既distance明明唔遠架,雖然性格有d天南地北,但係我覺得都唔應該令我地有現家依個咁大既distance 架....
究竟我地既問出左係邊呢...
或者你真係講得岩....有時有d野特登去做未必一定成功...就好似唔見左樣野,無發癲咁搵佢都搵唔到,反而你唔搵佢呢,佢又會自己出返來....
有時d野真係咁...有時d事真係好無奈.....  May 14 甜言蜜語~~近來聽到一個朋友既甜言蜜語, 唔知大家用唔用得着呢.
 (一定要係平時閒話家常時講先更有效)
男: 今個星期日,天氣報告話會涼返,記得着多件外套呀~~
女: 都成五月啦,應該唔會涼得去邊掛..
男: 好似話會去到20度ja...
女: 嘩,咪成十度有多,不過今日都好似涼左好多咁, 唔知依家幾度呢?
男: 下, 依家呀, 未做天氣報告ja, 唔知呀, 一係打電話去問啦~
女: 傻啦, 我講下之ma, 使乜特登打去問wor...
男: 咁不如我話你聽依家幾度啦, 依家有十度..
女: 下, 十度,點解呀?咪傻啦.
男: 係我愛你有十度呀, 傻豬!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ May 13 Another long time no see~~好耐都無update 過啦.....
le 左香港不經不覺已經三個月啦...由初初既唔習慣,intern 時成日怕做錯野,到現家習慣左熟識公司geoperation, 同係公司有班好ge 同事 (我覺得仲未可以用朋友le 形容, 無辦法,我ge 性格就係咁) 自己不知不覺都有好多ge 變化......更加學到唔小出le 做野既態度...以前對工作,生活ge 睇法都有改變....
係香港就好似一個完全唔同ge world...有好同唔好...好ge 就係大家好有衝勁去做得更好, 每個人都好competitive, 永遠都有進步既空間, 你放鬆一下咩? 好快會俾人out 左你, 無做好自己ge 本份咩, 都唔得, 因為依d叫不進則退...不過就因為咁...大家生活變得好緊張, under pressure...當你係香港一間有返咁上下既公司做野, 你會發現d 人係” To live is to work”．．慢慢大家已經唔再識去ｅｎｊｏｙ ｌｉｆｅ （曾經希個朋友既ｍｏｔｔｏ 就係ｅｎｊｏｙ ｌｉｆｅ， 我一路都覺得佢只不過係到扮型．．依家諗返起， 先發覺要識得真真正正ｅｎｊｏｙ ｌｉｆｅ 係唔易架．．唔係話有錢就可以ｅｎｊｏｙ 到， 咁當然希錢都可以ｅｎｊｏｙ 啦．．．不過可能只係身體上既ｅｎｊｏｙ， 當你做完一日好貴既ｓｐａ， 去完ｌａｎｅ ｃｒａｗｆｏｒｄ， ｐａｃｉｆｉｃ ｐｌａｃｅ， ｉｆｃ ｓｈｏｐ 完，你ｇｅ心仲可能累過未去之前．．．好似好不可思義？香港真係有好多咁ｇｅ人．．
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