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9 janvier Year 2009 - a Blue start....A new year already....in the past, I always have the feeling to get renewed and a new start in every year eve...And very often I will have a high spirit in the beginning of the year...
But this year, somehow it is not the same, I don't how to explain the feeling I have....I have a great desire to want to be energtic in the start of the year but yet I feel so uncomfortable to get back to work...I don't know what it is....I know I should be grateful to what I have for my job, but yet I just cannot find any sense of accomplishment or things I want from my current job......just wanna escape far away...
I just find out that these few months my confidence or interest has go down to its maximum, I just can't find the way out...there is many things I want to do but yet I can't find anyway to get it done...
What's wrong with me? I really don't know, I have been telling myself my lack of motion to work is just because it is so close to my travel and holiday and that's make me work lazily .....but now I find it is not the case, there is so many thing to worry, and seem everything bad thing just come altogether suddenly, leaving me a lot of pressure and things to face....
I wanna fly away and develop my own interest but yet I am confined to my current situation....
I want to change!!!!!!!!!!
Is there anybody that could help me???????????????
2 décembre DisappointmentI just feel I am not angry with you this time, but rather is kinda disappointment....
I do not how to speak out the feeling....many emotion blow me up...you seem so taking care of me while on the other hand, you seem too much concetrate on yourself and neglect my interest or event let me being left unprotected.....I don't understand the complexion....It is not the first time you have done that (or more precisely is it is not the first time I felt being treated by you like that.....), but everything I am thinking of reason to cover you, now I just gradually find out maybe it is because you are really spoiled by your family and yet your don't know....Everybody seem to be letting you do whatever you want...I know you have kind heart, but sometime you are just blinded by your desire for execllence....but your don't know some how you hurt other and the one you love....
Anyway, I don't think you will have a chance to look at this blog...but I just wanna to speak out my feelings out there...
Walking to the next step for both of us, I think we still have a big gap and distance to walk far.... 3 novembre Happy Birthday Ryo Chan!Happy Birthday to Ryo chan! wish you have a fab. career and getting more fans... (this ryo chan is the J pop I become obessed recently....)
And Happy Halloween to all of you! How's your weekend?
Well... I have been to OCean park, and so strange I am not going for the Halloween , just normal day going for the the ocean park. People will know me that I am super afraid of ghost and so this kind of thing never my cup of tea! So instead of spending time doing nth in HK, I went to the ocean park last sunday! and it was super super hot! I even change for twice but my sweat is just coming out non-stop!....
I think I was become old enough to stop playing those high risk machines....I remeber when I was still in YW, I was always the first one to get on those machines and so eager to play, even other girls back off....I remeber once upon a time, we went to ocean park and we play Rock Scissor Paper when playing the pirate ship! But this time, my thoart and voice lost when I get back, I scream loud enough that the one beside actually scare of me rather than the ever free falling speed of the jumpy macahines....
30 octobre Just an update from a 2 year time....Woo hoho....
Just find out how long I have not been here and update my blog....
Horrible! It was a two years time! Thing was changing 100% these two years...
Part time job changing (from FO + Espirit Sales + Banquet Sales Coordinator+ Sales assistant...)Graudation (best student in 4 th supplement)....looking for permanent jobs.....(Venetian)...Broking up with the previous him and meeting another him.....Going Germany with the existing him... Keep one dogs(Springer)....Going Shanghai trip with this existing him....Going Thail with my mom and two aunties....Going Japan with this existing him (Self driving in Hokkaido...)Keep another dog (poodle)...Getting fatter and fatter...making big bonus from job....start being obessed in Japanese Pop band, Ryo kun and Kame kun....it was a lot lot changes....I just can't believe how much changes could take place in 2 years time...
But so good! when I saw the above things I undergo, I only remember the happy memories but for sure I know I have undergo some tough times during those dates....What more am I ask for? (You know what, I also just understand this when I type this blog and saw what I have typed for the changes previously....) It was amazing!
You know what, before logging in this blog, I am planing to write about some stress I face recently...but you know, after remember all the happy memories from above, I just think that all the stress I face worth nothing....I see myself again remembering those happy memories when I log in again two years later, backseeing what I have done
Suddenly realise on every period, we certainly need to face different stress and breakdown....and many times we are just so focusing on them that we forget to look on the happy happenings around....But so irony that after a long time.. when we look back, we just remember those happy times...and we actually waste the time to be sad rather than celebrating the happy moment....
FOLKS, WE NEED TO BE APPRECAITING FOR GOOD HAPPENINGS...not everything god and we face are for granted.
Guess what, after writing up so many things here, I feel I am the lucky one....
May God bless all of you!!!! 11 octobre 每"季"既uodate....哈哈~~終於肯乖乖地咁坐係部腦面前update 個blog 啦, 其實我想update 好耐架啦....
由係香港intern 完就已經想架啦...但係自己可以懶成咁,就算坐係屋企無野做都唔會上下個blog...
搞到個blog生晒雜草tim....
話咁快又返左學成一個月啦, 雖然我都有做parttime,但係依個月來都唔係好忙,因為year 4 subject 又小左,返工又唔係返得多,所以真係唔係好辛苦~~
不過我發現原來大家係year 4都好忙好勤力架wor, 差唔多日日都要返工,所以我決定搵多份part time 做,希望可以幫補下我每月不斷増加既支出啦....
如果要選一年最改變同影響我既一年..我諗今年無第一,都有第二架啦....一來去左香港做野,先發現原來個world 係咁大, 雖然之前都去過exchange, 但係今次係係一個commercial 既world 生存,真係令我獲得唔小出來做野既skills 同attitude, 二來俾我遇上佢, 雖然佢唔算係一個perfect 既人,但係我相信我同佢可以一路走下去....(希望你睇到啦~~雖然你唔知有依個blog 既存在~~~)
之後又講下讀書個方面啦,可能受左intern 既影響,發覺自己月來月唔太喜歡讀書,之前仲諗住自己一定會讀master tim, 但係原來只不過係以前既我未真真正正咁行出個world, 一路都係自己好細好細ge vision 到諗野,仲要以為自己好醒....唉...現家諗返都覺得自己naive...現家既我,真係好想快d畢業, 快d可以出來做野養家...唔使再要屋企shoulder 晒所有既burden.....
到最後我都好想講一樣野...雖然我唔講佢個名出來,但係我知佢一定會睇到同明白,正與我都明白一樣...
其實大家一路以來都有努力過,但係唔知點解個timing 就係唔岩....
我知大家都係對方心目中有一定既份量, 但係又偏偏唔可以咁close,又或者無機會做d好close 既野....
其實我自己都唔係好明...我地大家既distance明明唔遠架,雖然性格有d天南地北,但係我覺得都唔應該令我地有現家依個咁大既distance 架....
究竟我地既問出左係邊呢...
或者你真係講得岩....有時有d野特登去做未必一定成功...就好似唔見左樣野,無發癲咁搵佢都搵唔到,反而你唔搵佢呢,佢又會自己出返來....
有時d野真係咁...有時d事真係好無奈..... 14 mai 甜言蜜語~~近來聽到一個朋友既甜言蜜語, 唔知大家用唔用得着呢.
(一定要係平時閒話家常時講先更有效)
男: 今個星期日,天氣報告話會涼返,記得着多件外套呀~~
女: 都成五月啦,應該唔會涼得去邊掛..
男: 好似話會去到20度ja...
女: 嘩,咪成十度有多,不過今日都好似涼左好多咁, 唔知依家幾度呢?
男: 下, 依家呀, 未做天氣報告ja, 唔知呀, 一係打電話去問啦~
女: 傻啦, 我講下之ma, 使乜特登打去問wor...
男: 咁不如我話你聽依家幾度啦, 依家有十度..
女: 下, 十度,點解呀?咪傻啦.
男: 係我愛你有十度呀, 傻豬!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 13 mai Another long time no see~~好耐都無update 過啦.....
le 左香港不經不覺已經三個月啦...由初初既唔習慣,intern 時成日怕做錯野,到現家習慣左熟識公司geoperation, 同係公司有班好ge 同事 (我覺得仲未可以用朋友le 形容, 無辦法,我ge 性格就係咁) 自己不知不覺都有好多ge 變化......更加學到唔小出le 做野既態度...以前對工作,生活ge 睇法都有改變....
係香港就好似一個完全唔同ge world...有好同唔好...好ge 就係大家好有衝勁去做得更好, 每個人都好competitive, 永遠都有進步既空間, 你放鬆一下咩? 好快會俾人out 左你, 無做好自己ge 本份咩, 都唔得, 因為依d叫不進則退...不過就因為咁...大家生活變得好緊張, under pressure...當你係香港一間有返咁上下既公司做野, 你會發現d 人係” To live is to work”..慢慢大家已經唔再識去enjoy life (曾經希個朋友既motto 就係enjoy life, 我一路都覺得佢只不過係到扮型..依家諗返起, 先發覺要識得真真正正enjoy life 係唔易架..唔係話有錢就可以enjoy 到, 咁當然希錢都可以enjoy 啦...不過可能只係身體上既enjoy, 當你做完一日好貴既spa, 去完lane crawford, pacific place, ifc shop 完,你ge心仲可能累過未去之前...好似好不可思義?香港真係有好多咁ge人..
21 mars 喂喂~~我update 啦~~嘩,睇一睇...原來都成個月無update 架啦.....
不過大家都好似無乜理過我咁....好似我走左就走左咁...
hm...點講呢,我又唔係真係忙到無時間update 既....只不過係香港,時間好似好唔夠用咁...每日你一早起身, 真係要到天黑先可以返到屋企架....返到屋企又唔想做任何野....聽下歌,睇下書咁又一日啦...有時如果放工仲有時間同energy 先會同d 朋友出去行下, 不過話就話行下ja, 其實都係食下飯再散步咁~~
真係去到weekend 先可以好好咁休息同 relax 下ga~~~我算好架啦...個d full time 成日都要sat同sun 都返去睇返自己個function 架~~有個full time 仲連續咁返左21日都無off 過...真係好犀利 lor.....
仲有呀, 我 finally 係 last weekend 睇左brokeback mountain 啦, 好鍾意套movie 呀~~睇完之後唔知點解覺得好舒服 (我知用依個字怪怪地架啦...但係我真係唔知用乜野字le describe...)兩個男主角擁抱, 撫摸, 再激咀...我真係一d都唔覺得核突....唔知點解....總之就好鍾意套movie 啦~~~
點知佢竟然話一d 都唔好睇...又話成套movie 都無講點解佢兩個會愛得咁深.... 19 février 终於上到網啦~~大家點呀~~intern 做成點呢?
我係hk 都算ok 啦,不過就super 忙lor, 我個department 叫event management, 係你諗唔丁咁多既function lor, 超多business 既meeting 呀, annual dinner 呀, breakfast meeting 呀, business luncheon 咁, 個個function 都幾萬蚊,大型既仲十幾萬, 你真係諗唔到點解d 公司有咁多錢做依d 野lor~~~
咁我梗係未做到對客既野啦, 依家主要都係做返d paperwork 咁啦~~有時又filing 咁lor, 不過依幾日返banquet 個邊睇個actual operation, 係super 地倦lor~~返7...你地估下放幾點? 係6 lor...仲要成日企, 係咪好得先? 哈哈~~不過真係睇到好多野lor~~
人事方面就仲未知啦, d 人係好似對你幾好既, 不過遲d 就唔知啦~~~你知啦, 香港人ma....嘻嘻~~~
仲有仲有....如果大家有興趣打俾我呢,可以打 6103 4670 架, 因為澳門個戈係香港用唔到呀...不過呢,如果你地weekend 有活動,咁就梗係要叫埋我啦~~~最好打個電話睇下我有冇返到呢ma...esp d 手部活動呀~~哈哈~~打個電話唔使好多時間架ja.....記得啦~~哈哈~~~ 10 février 最佳損友!?好多謝大家留俾我既message 呀~~大家都要努力加油呀, 每個人既internship 都要好好地既~~
前幾日我係一個朋友個blog 到聽到陳奕訊首 "最佳損友" ,我覺好正, D 歌詞又好中....
其實一生人可以有幾多好朋友呢? 而依D 好朋友又有幾多又可以真真正正變成你既知己呢?
我地成日係剛剛識既時候可能係好要好既, 但係到左一D moment 可能因為一D 明明係微不足道既事,但係個陣就係自己死心眼而慢慢疏遠, 跟住再變埋陌路人... 但係過程裹面,我地大家都忘記左彼此一齊既開心快樂, 仲有大家一齊分享過既時光, 個時覺得對方明明就係最明白自己既人,亦係唯一個可以乜都講既對象,佢對你既開解曾經係可以令你再一次笑返既事...點解佢係你心入面會突然間變左一個你唔想見到既人?
就好似佢其中既歌詞:
" 从前共你促膝把酒倾通宵都不够我有痛快过你有没有
很多东西今生只可给你保守至到永久别人如何明白透 实实在在踏入过我宇宙即使相处到有个裂口 命运决定了以后再没法聚头但说过去却那样厚 " 唔知你地有無試過一d咁既經歷呢,如果有,你一定會對D歌詞好有感覺...
或者大家彼此之間既友誼已經唔可以只有純純既友誼, 即係個種單純只為你好,想你好既關係....因為大家之間可能仲有猜忌,唔信任等等....然後每次你諗返起對方, 你會覺得心痛, 希望可以將所有關於佢既野抹晒,但係你會發現原來係唔得既, 因為你地兩個已經唔可以抹去對方,你仍然會希望知道佢既消息, 仍會為左佢既事上心....偏偏你同佢就唔可以好似以前咁交心, 仍然你會發現你已經好難再識一個好似佢咁既朋友.....真係好諷刺.....
" 早知解散后各自有际遇作导游
奇就奇在接受了各自有路走 却没人像你让我眼泪背着流 严重似情侣讲分手 "
8 février 你地internship 做成點呀?!好耐都無update 個space 啦~~睇見人地個space, 個個都已經開始左個internship, 你地開始習慣未呀? 我自己仲prepare 緊我internship 既野呀.....
因為唔想好似上次出門咁趕,我就係一星期前停左我既partime, 諗住專心d 啦....點知...原來係多餘既...因為今次跟本就無乜野要搞,要pack 既....哈哈~~ 不過都好既,at least 俾我 refresh 下自己, well-prepared D lor, 不過成日無野做,又好似唔知點咁因為俾多左時間我諗野...開始真係擔心自己會唔會係個邊唔適應, 又或者同d 同事傾唔埋咁.....又怕我對F&B 既knowledge 唔夠,怕自己跟唔到人地既step...唔知點解,今次去既地方雖然近過上次exchange 好多好多, 但係擔心既野, 怕既野,諗既野, 都多過上之好多......可能今次係因為去internship, 要真係做野....又係一個人去啦.... 哈哈~~
不過應該唔怕既...因為...我信我自己~~~
仲有我好想講既一樣野....我發現原來依個月既我成日覺得煩既事,其實真係幾傻同有d無聊, 原來痛過之後,當你望返過去, 所有野都係咁微不足道...所有事都唔係你諗既咁樣...個陣自己困住自己,,跟本睇唔到個big picture...外面既野我都未試過,點解自己要咁死心眼呢,係咪? 今次真係又上左一課啦....
12 janvier 剪頭髮?!今日已經係第五科啦....原來真係好似好快過咁
不過倦還倦,我都好想update 下個blog....
今日我見到Alice 電左個頭...突然間令我諗起曾經有本書話女人改變髮型只有兩個原因: 1) 感情失意, 想改變自己
雖然我唔覺得完成正確,但至少你同我或者都有試過用改變髮型黎改變自己....
因為第一個原因既女人, 通常以剪短頭髮黎做改變, 就好似所有同男朋友既回憶都由頭髮開始,以前同佢甜蜜既時間,佢摸住你既頭髮,同你講話佢唔會變...你今日睇見把頭髮就諗返起D咁既回憶,你話有乜辦法唔剪左佢呀?
其實剪個頭真係有咁大影響力咩? 我相信令你甦既唔係因為頭髮,而係你自己既心態,係因為你下定決心忘記佢, 係你想做D 野改變自己先可以令剪頭髮有咁大影響力....當你心態變左既時候,同一件事對你黎講可以係好唔同架....所以下次唔開心既時候..時間真係一個好好既藥水...佢可以將一d 你以為好重要既野變得輕鬆.....當你再回頭既時候, 你會好慶幸自己曾經有個戈咁苦既過去, 可以令你長大同慢慢領會...... 5 janvier 無骨氣....唔知點解近來"無骨氣"依個phase 成日係我腦裡出現, 可能係依排睇得太多好有意思既blog 啦~~
無骨氣....對男人來說...大多數都係係工作範圍...可能係明知自己的能力明明比上司好,上司郤一直騎係他頭上...但因為身份既關係, 都要繼續擦佢鞋, 仲要係佢面前認衰仔....聽落都好無骨氣..覺得個男人真係有點兒那個...不過係依個社會又有幾多依d 咁既人呢? 可能你屋企對面個不斷升職既有為青年就係咁....又或者樓下個戈幾十年都係咁樣生存黎養妻活兒個地中海伯伯....
咁對女人呢?無骨氣似乎唔會用來形容女人...無骨氣好似係男人專用咁..其實女人都可以好無骨氣架....
尤其對住男人....當一個女人明知個男人唔會鍾意佢, 明知當佢係代替品, 明知係搵佢黎攝期, 明知自己做乜都無可能達到d 乜野....明明佢乜野都無表示過...但只要佢對你笑下,傾下計,你仍然會係自己忙到死既時候幫佢買早餐, 明明自己成朝無野做,你仍會一早起身叫佢身, 明明唔行開個條路,都要搵下藉口兜過去,為既只係同佢講聲hi 又再或者係佢心情唔好個陣,你驚你講小小野都怕令佢更嬲?.. 咁樣無骨氣法你又會唔會同情佢,可憐佢? 咁樣係一個人既影響下生活,又究竟有幾卑微呢? 又或者所有所有你見到個女人受苦都唔及個男人既一個笑容,一個小小既安慰?
女人呀女人呀~~幾時先可以有骨氣咁為自己生存呀? 1 janvier HAPPY NEW YEAR 2006~~~~~新年快樂~~~
話咁快05年又完左啦
hmm...我自己就兩樣都有啦
05 好得意, 我所有開心既樣都係係上半年發生
06 年....大家要有個新開始呀, 放低晒係05唔開心既野,開心既野就要一直keep 住到2010 年~~~exam 要prepare 得好d, 大家都high pass
仲有係到要同以下既朋友仔講:
SALLY
天頤
Jen
MANDY 同SANDY
GILES
仲有其實好多人我都想一個個寫ga, 不過實在太長, 我又特別lazy, 所以大家唔好見怪啦~~~總之wish 你地個個都prosperous 2006 啦~~哈哈~~
19 décembre What a disgusting media!I think you guys must have read the news about the protest against WTO in Hong Kong...
I personally think that it is really unfair for what they call the "free" trade......And I really support those developing countries strike.....And the other hand, I really appreciate the HK police force try thier very best to keep the discpline of HK...They are patient and use moderate way to avoid any kiosk that will happen.....
However, yesterday when I read the HK Apple Daily, it is really disgusting!!!! On one headline, they say they police was weak and thier strategy is useless when confronting with the Korean Protestant!!! And one of the police was being caught by the protestant (they really showed the picture that the police was caught)
Hey, you nukes! Can't you imagine that with such a big crowd, there must be something happen like that....when the police are not allowed to use any other violent method to control the crowd and the crowd can really use violent and radical way to protest? I really don't understand why the media did something like that....Seem they just want to attract the reader.....It really makes me furious about this......
HK MEDIA, see what you have done to your own city, your place of birth and growth????? 18 décembre Finally the X'mas break comes~~Ok....So the semester has come to an end
After the last week exhaustion of project and presentation, finally it comes to the X'mas break....
This semester really went through many ups and downs....I really dunno how to express them in words....It just like the roller coaster~~~And you know, you will only have few exciting turning ups in the roller coaster (so u know what i mean???)
Anyway, this semester is just full of fun to me, especailly when you guys are with me
Anyway, we all deserve a good break and a happy holiday! Let put down our lovely Aussie professor and god damn Fatima first....( well, Fatima is just for me, oh damn....which I really worry about
By the way, wish you guys have a happy holiday with your beloved one~~
5 novembre 好exhausted 呀~~超級exhausted
不過雖然忙,但係今日我見到個bride wear 套dress ,好開心好開心咁行出去我地pousada, 真係有種好"登"佢開心既感覺
到我返到來屋企....已經虛脫lu.....
3 novembre "紀念死去的愛情"???近來每個人都叫我聽周杰倫既新歌...."夜曲"
依幾年周杰倫既歌全部都差不多,唔係唔好聽,但係好多時一聽就聽得出係佢既歌...
不過首歌個melody 都幾好聽呀...不過當我睇埋歌詞...
我突發奇想....如果我無睇錯,首歌應該係話佢情人死左...."死去既愛情,真係值得紀念"嗎? 一個人死左,無論你對佢幾咁懷念, 用盡幾多effort 都係無用....值得嗎???又或者,你去懷念佢,唔係因為你真係掛住佢,而係紀念佢或者懷念佢,會令你忘記佢已經死去? 最終目的係令自己開心D???阿....我都唔知自己講乜啦....SHIT.....只不過係一首流行歌者....
30 octobre ~~Hallowen Party~~又一個開心既Halloween 既 party 諗返起上一年個halloween, 真係個nightmare... 好啦,講完d開心野,又再講下我地戈個出盡全城既人力物力既東亞運動會啦!!!
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